Random Musings

Hi my wonderful 5 readers. I have been very bad and not posting as much as I should have. Well, here's a quickie update. Dad's doing better. He's at home relaxing and not dead...always a relief. I've been working a lot. Have a lot of business happening which is always a good thing. I am, again, going back to Isagenix. I'm going to try to stick with it this time. I, unfortunately, gained back everything I lost. So, I am looking to start slow and go the distance...endurance not speed. Blah Blah Blah and all that good stuff. Really I'm trying to lose weight because I feel old. I bet you thought I was going to say fat. Nope. I actually don't feel fat, as if fat itself was a feeling. I do feel old and with that I have noticed a few fun things. 

Boy this old age stuff just creeps up on you. Here I sit at my computer listening to Neil Diamond's Cracklin' Rosie! I'm in my forties (early), not sixties. Oh well, I guess I'm going to be one of those grouchy, "get off my lawn" old people. Gosh I hope not. I started working out more and darn it to hell if I'm not suffering. My hip hurts, my feet are sore and I'm wondering why I should be doing this at all. I have noticed...I like that word, noticed....that I'm not losing weight even though I am following a decent diet and working out at least 3 times a week. I have noticed that I'm feeling more and more tired but I'm sleeping the same amount time. I noticed that I can't drink the way I used to without getting heartburn. This hurts just to write it down much less experience it. 

Getting old sucks.

I don't get it. Okay I'm going to challenge the wisdom of whatever "malevolent" being is out there that created us (regardless of religious points of view). Why make a being (that's us) that has consciousnesses of life and the awareness of itself growing old and yet offer it no ability to stop the process and it's also aware that despite everything death is still inevitable? What sick, warped sense of humor is that?

Alright, I feel better getting that out there. So, on a totally different note, my sister had her 3rd kid in January. Another boy. He looks just like his dad. The only thing missing is his Army uniform. 

I have started writing more. I have been inspired. Do you know how hard that is sometimes? Well, some of you do. I will say my inspirations are also my dreams. Which can be good and bad. The good thing is that they inspire stories. The bad thing is that the stories aren't always good. When I say good I don't reference the way they were written. My nightmares are so vivid. I have been keeping a dream journal since I was very young. I have tons of them. When I was younger my nightmares were so bad that I had to figure out what to do. Oddly enough they never seemed to stop me from sleeping. I was never terrified to sleep. Most of the times I was such a heavy sleeper I couldn't tell the difference. My dreams have become more vivid and scary as I have gotten older but I now use a dream interpretation book to help. I have bought the same book eight times as it keeps falling apart. It's the best book I have run across for dream interpretation. It's called The Dreamer's Dictionary by Lady Stearn Robinson and Tom Gorbett. If you don't have one I highly recommend this one.

Anyway, I have been having these strange dreams where in my dreams, I'm asleep and dreaming. Now we've all seen those cheesy horror flicks that have someone dreaming and then they think they are being attacked just to wake up and be attacked and wake up again. No. This mine are not like that. Not completely anyway. Usually in my dreams, I dream I'm asleep and then wake up having to start my day like usual. I get up, brush  my teeth, have coffee,take a nice hot shower and get dressed except when I go to find my keys I realize I left them back in my bedroom. That's when I see myself still asleep in bed. It's more like an out of body experience. Strange uh? I've had this kind of dream several times over the last three weeks. Oh what does it all mean? Who knows. It's just me being strange, again. Anyhoo, I've gotta run. 

I am going to try to keep my posts more regular. I wouldn't want to disappoint my five fans.

Until next time....