If you google the word dilemma it comes up with the following definition: "A situation in which a difficult choice has to be made between two or more alternatives, especially equally undesirable ones." Then goes on to give synonyms like quandary, predicament and vicious circle. *Sigh* Well, wonders never cease in my world and for the sake of my sanity I hope my five whole readers understand what I am about to spill. Everyone has someone in their family that does not sit right with them (I'm trying to be ambiguous here for a reason). I am no different. I have no real family anymore. Since my father died almost two months ago, I have NO family anymore. Sure, I have a sibling, who is a complete and utter moron. This person is a run away from responsibility, self-centered individual who I have tried to help throughout the years. The other person is a selfish, self-centered, manipulative, gas bag who thinks the world revolves around them and goes out the ...
Don't you wish your life had a re-do button sometimes? I know I do. I'd redo a lot of things. For instance, I'd re-do the day I thought I wanted to cut my hair short or when I thought it would be fun to go out with friends and get stinking drunk. I think everyone would like to re-do a day like that. I'd re-do the day I found out my father had brain cancer. I would actually re-do that day and the next 19 days because that's how long he lasted after he found out. I keep getting these grief calls from my father's Hospice and their support staff. How am I supposed to move forward if they keep calling to remind me he recently died. Not that I don't already know that but I don't need it pointed out. *sigh* I'm not mad, really, just annoyed. My father lived with me. His room is now my exercise room. I did that so it wouldn't be empty but I couldn't think about leaving it a bedroom either. It was too sad. So I changed it's purpose and thr...