...and the wheel turns

With Imbolc fast approaching I started looking at what I resolved to do and what I have actually done. I resolved to be more balanced...first in my budget. Which, if you are one of my rabid readers, you know I didn't accomplish. I didn't over spend but I spent more then I had intended. Then I turned my sights to myself. I resolved to be more balanced in my food intake and balanced in my exercise. Well, I have tried, not too terribly hard but I have tried. My first week I lost 4.4 pounds, my second week (which was last week) was a wash. I didn't lose any weight. Perhaps it was that cheesecake..humm...anyway, I am back on my horse and I will strive to be better this week. If I can lose the 2 plus pounds this week, I am only behind 2 pounds. I have calculated how much weight I need to lose per week (two pounds) which is 8 pounds per month in order to get to my goal weight of 140 by June. For those of you who do not need to take their bras off to get to 22...you do the math to find out where my starting point is.... and then keep it to yourself : P.

For those who don't know what Imbolc is, I got the following information from http://www.chalicecentre.net/imbolc.htm.

The First of February belongs to Brigid, (Brighid, Brigit, Bride,) the Celtic goddess who in later times became revered as a Christian saint. Originally, her festival on February 1 was known as Imbolc or Oimelc, two names which refer to the lactation of the ewes, the flow of milk that heralds the return of the life-giving forces of spring. Later, the Catholic Church replaced this festival with Candlemas Day on February 2, which is dedicated to the Virgin Mary and features candlelight processions. The powerful figure of Brigid the Light-Bringer overlights both pagan and Christian celebrations.

For this time frame, I am going to go with the Catholic version and the purification process. In keeping with the "balance" of Yule I will be "purifying" my body. I am still trying to lose weight and so I am "bending" these seasons , celebrations, to match what I want to do. In truth every season will lead back to my weight loss goal I just figure if I tie it in with something I will be that much more focused. 

I am also going to try other goals with each celebration. SO I am going to try to purify my negativity. I am going to attempt to purge all negative thoughts and feelings. I will soul search and remember that I too am a goddess and must act to be worthy of such a title. I will try my very best not to keep old grudges and hard feelings towards anyone that might have upset or hurt me. 

Having said all of that, I am still human and will faulter in my quest. I know this, I accept this but it doesn't make me want to do this less or try any less to succeed. All I can do is my best. This year has special meaning for me. 2012 something is going to happen but I am the one that will make it happen. I have decided that I have allowed life to take me where it wants to take me. No longer. I will go where I want to go. I will do what I want to do. I will lose the weight because I will it to happen for myself. I will purge myself of as many negatives as possible because I will become a better person. I WILL do this because I WILL myself to do this. No more excuses for myself, no one and nothing will get in my way unless I let it.

Eleanor Roosevelt said "You must do the things you think you cannot do."

That is my next challenge...until next time.

Post Script...wish me luck.