My Bytch Blog

So my three readers are probably on the edge of their seat as to what I did with my Christmas quandary. Well, I could go off and make this last for a while stringing you along with all kinds of stories and quotes citing stren gth and courage to stand against the social norm but I won't take that road. I CAVED! With my husband's complete and active support I went and spent a shit load of money on a lot more gifts. He even got me to the mall! And Cherry Creek Mall at that. I know.. I know...I was weak. I had a wonderful Christmas and got a wonderful Christmas gift from my husband. Everyone got what they wanted and I got a piece of myself stored behind a locked door in my head, shouting out "You're just weak!" With my conscience in tow I have spent the days after Christmas in a haze of happy memories and guilty feelings. I didn't over spend, I just didn't stay in the budget I allowed. I guess that's still something.  I have to write that to make myself ...

Ok I just wrote this wonderful, feel good blog about being better and balancing myself. Wow, that is easier said then done. What the heck! I have been trying to be a good and "balanced" person but it's hard. I have kept my word about not going to a mall or anything like that but this online stuff is killing me. I signed up for ebates.com and thought it was a crock but it is a real website and I have already earned money but that's beside the point. I have stuck to my budget and my husband asked me why there were less gifts under the tree than in prior years. I told him the truth. I made a generous budget and have stuck as close as I can to it. It is amazing how much I have spent in the past. I usually just go off and buy whatever I wanted and never really paid much attention to what I have spent. Now I am paying attention and I am shocked! I will not disclose what I have spent in the past but it is significantly more than I have spent this year. I thought that I HAD s...

I've decided that 2012 will be the year of self-improvement. But there is no time like the present to start so that is what I indeed to do. I hope everyone will enjoy the journey I will be posting on my blog and please feel free to add any comments or suggestions you feel will help me on my quest. To start I will have to go through each month and focus on what that month and its holiday or season is and what it means to me. Twelve months will mean twelve different things I will work on for self-improvement. I ran across this book The Wiccan Year by Judy Ann Nock and will be working off of her research of the seasons and their meanings. The month of December is Season Two of the Wiccan Wheel and according to the book is the Winter Solstice. It is also when most Christians celebrate Christmas for the birth of Christ. I guess I have seen one to many Discovery channel episodes on Christmas and when Jesus was really born. It is widely known that the Christan's picked Decembe...

My family and I went to eat at IHOP today. I woke up feeling tired and the thought of slaving away in the kitchen to make breakfast was more then I could take. I rounded up everyone into the minivan and we headed out on the town. When we got there, we were put on a waiting list. It seems I was not the only person that felt that cooking on the weekend was a crazy idea. After a short wait we were seated. The food was wonderful and the coffee was welcomed. It was only ten minutes or so after we left that I felt a terrible rumble and an eruption of odd sounds in my stomach. The coffee had kicked in. What an awful feeling! Caught in traffic at a light that only let two cars through at a time knowing all the while that you were holding in something that could embarrass you and mortify your family, not to mention stain your cloth car seats. Well...lucky me Burger King was just around the corner and I only had to endure the wait of one street light. Finally, we pulled ...

Once upon a mid-day dreary, while I lay here weak and weary. Over many blankets I had let fallen to the floor. While I laid down nearly napping suddenly there came a tapping, tapping at my bedroom door. Tis some visitor rapping at my bedroom door, not just this but something more. Ah distinctly I remember it was in bleak November and each separate dying feeling keeps my spirits on the floor. Eagerly I wished my sorrow would not linger on tomorrow and from my purse surcrease my sorrow, sorrow for my local drug store. For the 24 hour opened, heroic, local, fully stocked pharmaceutical store. Only this and nothing more. And the sulky, sad, uncertain rustling of my open curtain Chilled me, filled me with uncertain feeling never felt before So that now to still the beating of my heart I stood repeating Tis some new prescription I am needing Some new antibiotics I am needing keeping me from falling on the floor Only drugs and nothing more. Presently my flu grows stronger,...

It has been almost four weeks since I have gotten sick. I have been on and off sick but it took a head last week when I thought I was going to die. Going to the doctor's office took all of the energy I had and I sadly fell asleep in the room waiting for the doctor to see me. After a short visit he told me that I had a lung infection, sinus infection and the stomach flu. The news was not surprising since I had not eaten in two days and I felt like hammered crap. I was ordered to spend the next two days in bed and no to eat anything if I could help it. That was not the hard part. I was more than happy not to eat anything but staying in bed for two days and not get up for any reason but the restroom was (I thought) going to be hard. Of course when you pass out and every day becomes a blurr two days, three days its all the same when you're not conscious.   It wasn't until this past weekend I have finally been able to live a real life again. I got up, slowly, and was able to go...

I was watching the 2nd season premier of The Walking Dead on AMC last Sunday when my daughter asked me the inevitable question, "Mommy if you were a zombie would you try to eat my brains?" Ahh...what better question than that on a chilly night in October? I reassured her that there were no such things as "real" zombies and told her that I would never try to eat her brains. Of course with all the new zombie movies I've been watching in honor of Halloween coming up I am not surprised at the question just at which kid it came from. My daughter of thirteen years asked me instead of my zombie-mesmerized son. He had watched every single scary movie I have put on. Now I don't really like the kids watching scary movies which is why I usually watch then late at night when 1. it's more scary in the dark and 2. the kids have been sent to their rooms to unwind and sleep. But I have caught my son watching these movies through the slats on the staircase on more than o...

For the last couple of nights we have heard our two year old black lab, Molly, whimper and moan and try to jump over the baby gates down stairs. We have had her since she was 3 months old and she has NEVER done this before. Now it seems like something is scaring her and she doesn't want to sleep down stairs alone. Last night she did the same thing. It took a little while but we put on the fireplace for her and soon she was fast asleep. When I finally got to sleep. I had an odd dream or nightmare. I dreamt that I was friends with this older guy and he and kids moved into a large and old home. The guy told me that his house was haunted but I didn't really believe him. I walked down a dark stairway to the main room that was lit up. On the last step I saw saw a guy that was rolling his neck, like he was  in pain but I didn't see his face because he it rolled in the opposite direction. I thought it was my friend's oldest son....

Today has been a special day for me. It's my 10 year anniversary with my husband and we have been happy every day of that time...no kidding. Strange I know, all couples have their issues but we have had more good then bad times and I am thrilled to say I am looking forward to the next 60 years with excitement and joy with this man. Ok, enough of the mushy stuff. Today has also come with some unexpected twists and turns, not related to my anniversary. As I worked at home, writing for my next book, the house was uncharacteristically quiet. There were no nephews in the house, they went back with their mom. My kids were at school and my father was out most of the day. I listened to the house move, groan and make odd noises. The dogs were all outside and so I was almost completely alone except for my faithful furry friend, LaFuzz the cat. Yes, the cat and I were the only constants in the house and the house was telling me all kinds of new and strange things. I heard creaks from the st...

Yesterday we woke up to the weather being cold and raining. I LOVED it! It was time to turn on the fireplace and warm up my hot cider. My sister and nephews are here for the weekend and we had intentions to go to the pumpkin patch and have some good ol' fashion fun but the wet kept us from our plans and we had to come up with Plan B. We went to a costume store in Westminster that looked like a castle. It was huge and yet it was incredibly crowded. It seems that everyone had the same idea as we did regarding Halloween and rain. As you walked into the store they have an impressive display of gory (plastic) dead bodies and zombies. Surprisingly enough none of the kids were afraid of these monsters. I wasn't sure if it was because they understood they weren't real or if I have been watching too many horror movies in front of them and they were all now desensitized. We made our way to the back of the store where all of the costumes were. That was also where all of the crowed wa...

I had a list of 15 things to today and got only 2 of them accomplished. My new refrigerator I purchased over a week ago is too big so I've had my contractor knock down a wall to make it fit. Of course a normal, sane individual would have just bought a smaller appliance, I am happy to say I am not a normal or sane individual. This does tie into the title...just indulge me a bit here. So I had to paint the space that was created for the fridge and make it look like the rest of the kitchen. After going to Lowe's and getting what I thought was the right color, I quickly realized that I was very wrong and that I needed to go back to the hardware store and try again. This time I went to Home Depot. On the way to Home Depot I saw a very odd sight. Right in the middle of a cemetery was a huge sign that said "Grand Opening." Well of course I love going to Grand Openings and this one was no different. Well maybe it was a little different. I mean I didn't have any problems...

My sister called me late on Friday night due to some "issues" with her current roommate.  At 9pm on a Friday night when all I wanted to do is take a hot shower and relax with a book, I was packing up myself and my kids to go to the Springs. Luckily my husband was also in the Springs working. I drove for an hour and a half nodding in and out of a sleepy haze and finally made my way to the hotel. Dragging my two kids out of their slumber into the hotel room I put my head on a pillow around eleven at night and passed into a deep sleep. I wanted to sleep in late but my internal alarm clock saw fit to make sure I was bright eyed and bushy tailed by six a.m. WTF! When I was younger I used to wake at the crack of noon now I'm up before the cock crows. I hate getting older...sorry sorta went off on a tangent. Anywhoo, I enjoyed a nice breakfast with my husband as the kids stayed upstairs sleeping. He went to work and I went back into the hotel room to wake up Prince Alarming and...

Today I had to go to the Springs and found that the red corvette's, the killer Bimmers and the awesome Ford Mustang's were not the vehicles to look out for when driving. It was the minivan drivers that had the worst driving habits. Those soccer mom's from the burbs and frustrated father's that couldn't have that cool sports car cause they knocked up their wives so many times they could create their own baseball team were the ones that were weaving in and out of traffic like they were trying to make a basket. Speeding down the highway at 85 miles an hour I was left behind like I was standing still by a minimum of four minivans. Now, I drive a minivan and they must have thought, as they were crawling up my ass like a hemorrhoid, that I was one of "their" kind. Instead I moved to the next lane and let them pass. I figured that they could clear out all the cops ahead of me. There was one minivan in particular that definitely took the crazy cake. This white Fo...

I have been feeling sick for the past two days. It started out just feeling a little under the weather but yesterday it blew up and I felt gosh awful starting last night. I realized that I had reached a whole different level of tired. I was folding the clothes and putting them away when I all of a sudden I felt completely drained and then two seconds later I was full of energy. My body was just going crazy. I finished putting away the clothes and then simply layed down on the bed to feel the coolness of the sheets. I wasn't feeling tired or sleepy at that time and did not expect to just pass out. I woke up an hour later to my husband yanking clothes from under me to put them away so that he could get in bed too. I got up like I had slept a full 8 hours and started helping him put stuff away. When we got settled I layed back down hoping that I would go back to sleep but I didn't have to hope, I passed out again. What the hell?!? I had some really wild dreams too. I dreamt that ...

My sister was at my house the other day to spend some time with me and my family before heading back and starting a new life in the Springs. After a long Friday and Friday night of drinking and whatnots, I headed to bed eagerly wanting to hold the cool, soft pillow waiting on my bed. It was around two in the morning that I begin to hear the house stirring. My sister had gotten up and used the restroom, then went back to bed. My son got up and moved from the lower bunk bed to the top bunk bed. My daughter turned on her light and was quietly calling for the cat. All the commotion of the night almost kept me awake but Mr. Sandman was hard at work and this persistent tugging at my eyelids pulled me back into a deep and restful sleep. I woke up to the chattering of everyone around the breakfast table. As I walked down the stairs I begin to notice that the chattering was not of ordinary morning talk but instead they were comparing notes. When I asked my sister what they were talking abo...

I have been sleeping late trying to get things done and put the kids to bed. The weather has been wonderful at night and I have had the windows open until the wee hours of the morning when the cold chill sets in too close to my bones. Last night I fell asleep around nine after the kids where asleep and was at the critical point of falling into the other realm of rest when I heard a woman's voice sternly stay "Stop it!" I don't know who she was nor do I care but I felt I understood where she was coming from. Since I have doubled the amount of children in the house I have uttered this phrase far too many times for me to count. It was that phrase that went with me to my dream world. Offering a familiar howl into the thin night air and sending it to the four corners of the universe to be heard by all of the children in the world. I drifted off to sleep and was soon dreaming of a woman on a mountain top with a huge fire behind her. Dressed all in white she cha...

I have had my nephews at my house for weeks and am thankful for the blessing of their existence. Especially when I have stopped having uninvited visitors like the shadow in my doorway. I have been settling into baby motherhood again and relearning what it is like to have a one and two year old in the house. I have to say I miss my sister terribly and hope to see her soon. I know she misses us as well. As life quiets down from the frenzy of the move-in I lost all thoughts of problems from the other world or any scary encounters that weren't generated on purpose by book or movie. This proved to be stupid on my part. I will set my scary tale at Walmart around two in the afternoon. Now this doesn't sound like the beginning of a scary tale and I didn't think it would be but it was and of all places the restroom in the back of the store. I was shopping with my husband and nephews for diapers and whatnot's when the urge hit me and I excused myself to the privacy of the restr...

First off, I apologize for not writing sooner. I have received e-mails wondering if I fell off the face of the earth. No. I have not. But I have been very busy and losing a lot of sleep. I will give a quick update and then explain my blog title. A couple of blogs back I said that my sister and two nephews were visiting me. They are still here. One is a year old and the other two years old. Three adults in the house seems hardly enough with these two. I have been running around like a chicken without a head and end up passing out around 9 pm every night. My kids are back in school and I have been going to back to school nights, doing homework and going to my various school organizations that I am a member of. In my spare time, I still have laundry, shopping, taking the dog to the dog park, exercising, and everything else under the sun. The only good thing is that I am back on Isagenix and it does wonders for my schedule since I don't really have time to eat. So there's my exc...

As everyone surely knows there are many different types of panties for women. Some are for comfort and some are for show. Now I only bring up this subject because I have recently turned...well my age doesn't matter... I have started looking for things of comfort. But I really didn't expect what I purchased.  Yesterday, I cheaply went to Walmart to purchase some underwear, which I NEVER do, and when I got home I got a surprise. Thinking I got the right size I opened up the package and got out some underwear that I could have wrapped my 1 year old nephew in. They were HUGE! I looked at the package at the size and it had the size I thought I used.  Not wanting to use something that would have covered my shoulders when I wore them, I returned the package of panties and went back to the store I usually go to for my knickers. There are several sizes of underwear and then there is Walmart size. Until next time...

My sister and my two nephews are staying with me for a couple of weeks and the house is already in unrest. With three more people, two of them kids, it's hard to keep the house clean and the dog at ease like we usually do. Last night was different in the fact that I think that we have more then just my sister and nephews visiting. As I plunged into bed, exhausted from the day and the two extra kids I am not used to, I fell into a deep and desperate sleep. Around three in the morning I was freezing cold and woke up looking for a blanket. I usually wake up from sweating so waking up cold was new for me. I found the blanket and got comfortable when I felt someone or something standing next to me. Now, my kids have in the past, scared the crap out of my by just standing by my bed and willing me to wake up. In which case I usually do so cursing and yelling. This time I figured it was one of the kids again and, not wanting to disturb my sister and my nephews, I calmly took off my eye m...

Yesterday I was being completely lazy and didn't bother getting out of bed early but I was rudely pulled out of my semi-sleep by someone or something yanking the covers off of me. When I looked around I saw no one and figured it was nothing. I pulled them back up and went back to sleep. Then a little while later it happened again. I looked around but again no one was there. I looked under the bed and around the room but I was completely alone. I called out but no one answered. I walked downstairs periodically calling out but no one answered. I looked in the garage, there was no car. No one was home but me. It creeped me but I shook it off and tried to act like an adult and not a scared little girl. I went upstairs and started a shower. I got undressed (no I will not go into any details), turned off the light in the closet and closed the door. I got in the shower and was relaxing in the hot water when I heard the cat hissi...

I am going to take the LSAT (Law School Admissions Test) in December but first I am taking a prep course to make sure I can pass the darn thing. Some of the questions are just odd and test my common logic and common sense. Of course I do understand why the test are asking the way they do and I am hoping by understanding the reasoning I will understand what the answer is. In the meanwhile, I continue to study and drink a lot of wine to make sure my sanity stays intact from all of the studying. After the LSAT I will make a true decision on whether or not to really pursue law school. It is a lot of money but well worth it if I can get a job or open my own firm. If I don't go, I will finally get off my big (but 10 pounds lighter) butt and get a job as a paralegal. I did love working as a paralegal. I love the law and all of the aspects of working with it. I guess that's why I want to be a lawyer. Until that time, I will have to keep myself on the path and write until someone eith...

I've had a lot of people ask me about where to get Isagenix. If you are interested please contact me via e-mail (for those of you who have it) or by listing a comment on the blog and I will give you the information. Thanks

Yesterday was the last day of the Isagenix program. I know that everyone is dying to find out the results. Well here they are...I lost 10 pounds in 11 days (the 9 day program with two pre-cleanse days) and my husband lost 12 pounds! Yesterday was like running the last mile of a race. We stood the course and stayed true. I know I am NO expert on, well, anything medical but I have done every diet known to man since 1992; and I say that this was not the easiest but the safest (in my humble opinion) I have heard of and the only "natural cleansing" product that has given such great results. My husband and I feel a lot healthier and not just because of the weight loss. We have fewer to no aches and pains that we used to wake up with. We have more energy, we feel more alert and able to think without being in a fog. Overall I am impressed. No, I am not a paid spokes person : ) Although I wouldn't mind it in the slightest. We are going to be purchasing the 30 day program and go ...

All is good. Not too much to report. No real problems. We have started to enjoy the program and the benefits that it has offered us. It was a rocky start but once you get past the headaches, the fact that you are not eating any real food for a while and the psychological crazies of just drinking shakes and eating snack wafers, the progress you start to see will offer a comfort to all that you're going through. I will only report one more blog on this program listing our beginning and ending weight. I hope you stay tuned to find out just how much weight and inches we have lost. Our last day of this program is Monday September 15th. We do plan on doing the 30 day program next but I think that we will keep that progress to ourselves. Until then...

This is day six and although there wasn't anything really eventful about the day there are updates to be shared. My husband and I have noticed that we are sleeping better and waking up with fewer aches and pains and issues. Now, we are not sure if that's because of the weight loss or the cleansing that we are going through. Also, I have noticed that while studying for my LSAT I have more focus and ability to analyze better. My exercise stamina is better. I did workout again at the gym but I am winding down. I am only doing 45 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes walking. No extra bike ride tonight. All in all, we are getting used to the program and feel that we have benefited from it. We are also going to continue try to reach our respective goal weight. Our next purchase will be the 30 program which we will share. Since it cost $200+ each we are trying save money by just splitting it. I will keep you posted and on Tuesday of next week (August 16th) I will post our 9 day pr...

Since yesterday didn't pan out so well for us, we decided that today we would substitute our "healthy lunch" for another shake. We are trying to get back on track. Even though we jumped off the wagon yesterday we lost another pound. Now my husband has lost 6 pounds and I have lost 7. Today went a lot better. I worked out at the gym, 45 minutes on the cycle and 40 minutes fast walking and then tonight we went on a family bike ride for another 40 minutes. I feel good. I don't feel as "skinny" as I did before I ate my salad but I feel healthy. For the next 3 days we get to eat a healthy lunch. So this is actually going better for us. Not a lot of issues today. Until tomorrow.....

OK so today started out fine. 24 hours of no real food or any food at all just a cleansing drink, snack wafers and water until my eyeballs felt like they were floating. I went to the gym and worked out. 45 minutes on the cycle and an hour walking along with some floor work. I was doing all good until about 6pm. Then it hit me, it always hits me at night. The headaches, the body aches, the feeling light headed and drained of all energy, It was almost like the flu. As the night went on it got worse and worse. My husband, whom I love very much, talked me into getting some real food to combat the symptoms. So I broke down and we ended up at Chili's. Real nutritional right? Well he figured if you're going to fall of the wagon you might as well make it worth while. Of course in this instance we didn't fall of the wagon we jumped from it. As I was eating my Quesadilla Explosion Salad I started to feel like I was getting high. My whole body had odd sensations and the headache was ...

Today is day three and officially a cleansing day. I got out of bed this morning excited and curious about what my measurements and weight were. On day three you are allowed to re-weigh yourself to measure your progress. On my first post I said that I wasn't going to tell what my weight was but I am only because I am SHOCKED at what I saw when I stepped on the scale this morning. On Friday I weighed 184.0 this morning I weight 178.6! Wow! I didn't feel like I was losing that much weight. 6 pounds in two days. I am also shocked that I am not hungry. I've realized that my body and my brain are at war when it comes to food. We went to a movie in the park last night and saw hundreds of people around us eating popcorn, candy, chicken from Chic-fil-A and other assorted goodies. I was not hungry in the slightest. My husband acknowledged that he too was not hungry but he felt odd not to be eating in this situation and that his eyes were telling this brain something different then h...

Day one continued. Yesterday was day two of my pre-cleanse stage. Let me go back a bit to day one because when I blogged about day one it was rather early in the morning and well a lot has happened since then. Around 4pm my husband came home and said that he had had a raging headache all day. I had not gotten a headache...until...about 7pm. Then it hit me too. The headache was so awful it was debilitating! I couldn't do anything. It was so bad I was getting nauseated. I tried to fend it off with another "snack" thinking it was because I needed something in my system but that didn't help. Finally we took some aspirin and went to bed. In the morning we were both relieved to NOT have headaches. Day one was hard. Day Two Day two started out good, no headaches or issues...yet. As the day went on and it was time for our healthy lunch I started to feel a little cramping. I ignored it at first thinking it was nothing but then they got worse and it hit me. I ran to the res...

We decided to dive in and start the program today, a Friday. I was hesitant about starting it on a Friday because I usually "let go" of my strict (or not so strict) eating habits on the weekend. Now I have to suck it up and be a good girl. I figure if I'm going to spend $345 on a program I better stick with it and see what it can do for me. We took all the measurements needed to chart our progress and weighed in this morning. I was shocked. I had let myself go that much! AAUUUGGG!!! Ok I will only reveal my weight and measurements if requested. So remember to leave a comment. Today is day one of the pre-cleanse days. There are two pre-cleanse days before you actually start cleansing. I get a shake for breakfast, a 600 calorie max lunch and another shake for dinner. This sounds like all the other "diets" I've seen and been on. It is day three when the cleansing starts and that's when the fun really begins. No food just three shakes a day, 6 snacks which...

I just wanted to post a quick reading suggestion for those out there looking for something new and interesting. I just started reading When God was a Woman by Merlin Stone and have found I like it very much. Should you choose to read this book I would be very glad if anyone would post their thoughts about on my blog. I look forward to the feedback. Enjoy the read!

As I was flipping though my June 2011 copy of Natural Health, I came across an advertisement for Isagenix. Isagenix is a "nutritional cleansing" product that has a side effect of weight loss. I have cleansed in the past and have usually purchased the kit from Walmart or Walgreen's for $25 bucks or so. Now I have always felt better after cleansing my system but weight loss was never a significant side effect. True, Ron White does have something when he asks in one of his shows "Have you ever taken a crap so big your pants fit better?" I hate to admit that when I feel full of myself that I am always happy to puck out $25 from my wallet and buy a cleansing kit. I have been struggling with my weight since I was in high school and have tried everything from Aerobics to Zumba to get fit along with every trendy diet; so when I heard of a cleansing product with a weight loss side effect I was very interested. I looked it up on the Internet and found on Y...

My husband doesn't really like to watch T.V. but somehow I have him hooked on Jerseylicious, Project Runway and Big Rich Texas. Not that I am complaining I am just surprised. Since I haven't blogged in awhile I will try to do a quick catch-up. July went by too fast but my birthday (nope not telling which birthday) was awsome. My oldest friend and her family drove up from Texas to stay with me...at the same time...my sister and my nephews did the same thing. There was a lot of people, tons of kids and it was well worth it. I had a blast. My friend is moving to Massachusetts for her master's degree and we wanted to have some fun first. So after the week was over the house felt real empty and noiseless even with my two kids. As July went on a lot of developments happened with hippotherapy and cheerleading. Schedule changes and setting up meetings have me very busy. Also, the newest development is that I am going to take my LSATs in December. I am still not sure about going...

I've been jonesing for a new purse but can't decide what to purchase. I need functional but can't find a purse that I like or that matches what I wear. They are always too camping looking. I want a purse that looks expensive but that's not and is what my sister in law calls fu-fu. I found one purse that I really liked but I am not really wanting to spend $375 for a purse. OUCH! Who has that kinda money to spend on a purse? I can tell you this...they don't have kids or at least kids that are still living at home. Aren't there any purses out there that won't break the bank and are functional?

I'm trying to figure out what's worse. Self diagnosis or having many doctors run test and still not have any answer as to what's wrong with you. I have been battling issues with bronchitis and the fact that I am getting them more frequently and they are taking longer to clear up. My PC doc told me to go to a specialist. The specialist told me that I'm healthy and an above average breather. Then what the hell is wrong with me?!? Is that why they say doctors practice medicine?

I went swimming today, actually I just sat at the swimming pool and talked all day with friend. I had a really great time but I can't believe I screwed myself by not putting enough sunscreen on. Now I look like a lobster on my back. I can't wear a bra cause it hurts and I don't want to go around the house flopping. I had to finally settle on a strapless that only causes discomfort instead of pain. Then I get home and my son decided he wanted to go bike riding. I am exhausted from the day and he still has energy to burn. WTF, why do I feel so old? I'm not even 40 yet and feel like I'm falling apart. Does it get any easier as one gets older?!?

I hate it when people tell you they will be someplace at a certain time and then they don't show. My daughter's friend said she would be at our house at 3pm and at 3:30 she still hadn't shown. Then when my daughter called they were so flighty about it and said they were going to come over at 4:15 instead. When were they going to call and tell us that?!? NEVER! We called them. So I get the mom on the phone, thinking that it was just the kids doing this. Nope. She was the same way. I had to explain to her that I had things to do and that I had been waiting for her. I finally pinned her down to a time. Why is it no one practices common courtesy anymore?

I created this blog to be my new journal. I got tired of spending tons of money on journals that I either don't use or use and finish. So here are the ramplings in my mind. I have spent the better half of this morning watching reruns of Project Runway and Amercia's Next Top Model to get some sort of motivation for my weightloss. I have gained so much weight and am tired of just of not caring. Let me take it back I do care but I just can't do anything about it. I have be restricted by two of my doctors not to do more then ten minutes a day of cardio so I have taken up Yoga; which by the way is crazy hard. I was not sure I could do Yoga because I am not very flexible but I have found that if I try the gentle/old people Yoga that I can do that. I feel kinda pathetic for doing modified yoga when just 6 months ago I was busting my ass on the treadmill for 45 minutes and doing cycling at the gym for half an hour. Now I have been reduced to a pile of blubber on the sofa longing fo...